Prologue: The beginning of the end

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When everything you have goes away

You realize that nothing means a thing

Everything you thought was a big deal

Now you see it all and what is real

When all you have just falls apart

And nothing seems to work out right

And you're trying

When everything starts to feel the same

And everyone around you seems to change

You went along with me when things weren't right

And when the morning slowly fades to night

You're still alright

(Adam Merrin – Still alright)

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I pulled in to the gas station and slammed on the breaks. My chest heaved, and it was only now I'd stopped the car that I realised I was struggling to catch my breath. I took a shaky gulp of air and loosened my grip on the wheel. I leaned forward, resting my head in my hands, and gave in to the battle I apparently wasn't winning. A loud sob escaped as relief and fear washed over me in the same moment and big salty tears started to fall.

I was alone.

I let go.